I know Tuesdays are typically for travel but I stayed up most of the night to write this. There are times where I cannot do anything else until I get a thought out of my head. This is one of those thoughts. I’m going to take you to a place that I’m pretty sure almost all of us have been. We have all had that moment where you think to yourself “I’m so worthless.” I’m going to tell you why this needs to stop.
Yesterday I received a call from my nine year old daughter’s bus garage 15 minutes before her estimated time of arrival home in the afternoon. They asked me to meet the driver at the end of my driveway. Apparently Olivia had a bad day due to student council elections and was hysterical getting on the bus at school. When the bus pulled up, the driver said she had a really bad day and hoped she’d feel better. As soon as Olivia made it to the bus stairs she broke down crying further. Her words were inaudible behind the tears and heart ache.
As a parent, your heart hurts when you see your child cry. As a friend, you feel terrible when you see a friend so broken. It is the last thing you want to see. Yesterday, I experienced something far worse. Not only was my child crying, I heard the most horrible things come out of that sweet little girl’s mouth. I watched as she wrapped herself up in a blanket in my corner office chair and say “I worked so hard on this. It meant so much to me. I’m so worthless. I’m such a loser.” She continued to cry so hard that she gave herself a headache. I’ve never felt this kind of pain in my heart before. It made me realize, I had a much bigger issue at hand.
Why is it ok for me to tell myself that I’m worthless or feel that way at any time? However when I hear my daughter say it, it guts me and I’m left wondering why she would ever say or think of herself that way. Think about it, what is your first reaction when you hear a child or friend say that they are worthless? I’m pretty sure it goes something like “No you’re not! Don’t say that!” Sound about right? You don’t have the license to treat yourself this way. This is a crime against yourself and your livelihood.
I want you to join me today in the fight for our livelihood. This is not a one day battle that will decide it all for the rest of your life. This is a promise and a plan to yourself. The next time you are feeling low and worthless, imagine your child, best friend or relative saying this to you. The response you give them is exactly what you deserve as well.
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